“I want to feel it all
I wear my heart on my sleeve
Saying “Here I am, can you see me?”
I am beautiful and fucked up in the most glorious way
When standing in my truth, who cares what people say
Cause the moment we stop running from the demons in our heads
And instead we choose to love them
When saying yes to life, both shadow and light
Our suffering is done and we come alive”
I can’t get this song out of my head the past days (Shedding skins from Fia)
It’s so beautiful, because it describes so well the flip sides of the same coin.
We can not experience life fully if we don’t allow and feel the darkness inside of us
If we only want it to be light and ignoring that darkness that goes together with it
Every time I follow my excitement and joy I tend to feel a bit held back at the same time, because then it feels like a shadow is following me and it’s annoying me; a shadow of my inner critic for example, a shadow of insecurities or fear of whatever reason
And it’s so easy to reject that shadow as if it’s not a part of me, as if it shouldn’t be there, as if it’s there to harm me.
But in the same way we always have our shadow with us when we walk with our bodies in the sun… we can try to push it away or pretend that it isn’t there. But it is there, the sun gives a shadow, it’s the truth. Your shadow is your truth.
The shadow of your physical body won’t disturb you as long as you don’t find it disturbing, it’s just there, walking hand in hand with you and you can decide to focus on it and try to push it away or you can focus on the light instead, or the direction that you’re walking towards , or the beautiful birds and flowers around you. And at the same time you can smile at your shadow and be like “Hi, you’re here as well? Cool, let’s go together.” The same works for the shadow(s) inside of yourself.
Let the shadow be there, embrace it, the shadow of insecurities and fear and discomfort and other struggles. The light and the darkness go hand in hand.
That is life, the fullness of life.
And only by acknowledging that and accepting that, you will move forward with ease.
